Wishful Thinking

I had an interview today. I believe the interview went well. I really want this new position. Finally, it's a position in my area of interest. Of course, I'm doubting myself and feeling I won't get the position. Everyone is telling me to think positive and I'm trying my damnedest to think positive. However, I just feel that I won't get it because it's too good to be true. I want to pray about it, but I feel guilty about praying for anything that suits only my best interests...is that wrong?? Oh well, I'm just going do my best with thinking positive.

Stop the Voice Over!!!

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I really need NBC and Mark Burnett, the creator of The Apprentice, to stop having Donald Trump re-do his firing scenes. I know the show is fake I've watched the VH-1 Reality TV Shows Uncovered or something about the boardroom and the elevators being fake. That it's just a set and it's on the same floor as the loft the Apprentice wannabes are living. However, for my reality entertainment I need things not to be too obvious. If Donald can't make some entertaining comment when he's cutting these people down when he's about to fire them on the fly, feed him a script or give him a hidden headphone and have some script writer yell something in his ear because the voice over is horrible.

Okay, okay...I'm finishing venting and I'm off to bed. However, if this voice over crap continues, I'm taking the show off Tivo and that's a low blow coming from me.

WOMANS INTUITION

Normally, I don't read forward emails from friends and coworkers because I think the emails are so annoying. However, I did read this one from a coworker and I really liked it, so I thought I share it too.

Rules for a Woman to live by:
1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
2. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
3. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
4. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.
5. Slower is better.
6. Never live your life for a man.
7. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve, then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
8. Don't settle.
9. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
10. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
11. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
12. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
13. Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
14. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.
15. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
16. You cannot change a man's behaviors. Change comes from within.
17. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or a better job.
18. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
19. Never let a man define who you are.
20. Never borrow someone else's man.
21. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
22. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
23. All men are NOT dogs.
24. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two way street.
25. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage...deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
26. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.
27. Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
28. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always knows where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.
29. Never co-sign for a man.
30. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Why can't we be friends?

I just got off the phone with my little sister and I can tell in her voice something was wrong. She's 14 and she's just started high school at a very elite private Catholic school. Seven girls from her old middle school attend the school with her and she tells me that she's no longer friends with six out of seven. Basically, she says that the girls started talking behind her back, but act like her friend in her face until another girl from different set of friends tells her the truth. The girls who she's known since the age of six have turned on her.

My little sister is very strong-minded, so she acts as if she doesn't care and she will move on from this situation. We are very much alike where we talk big, but we are really hurting inside. Of course, I'm thinking in my head that I need to say something positive; instead, I tell her this will not be the first nor the last time girls/women will cross you. Basically, I tell her that girls are catty and this is what they do when they are jealous. I try to be honest with my little sister at all times and I just couldn't bite my tongue and try to sugar coat the meanness that girls can be to each other; especially, when it's girls who you've known for a long time. For instance, my little sister knows that I had an incident this summer with my ex college roommate and we are no longer friends due to her own vindictiveness and jealousy. I told her this wasn't first time I lost close personal friend, but its definitely will be the last. I'll admit I'm not most friendliest person in the world, but I'm genuine and I treat friendships higher than some immediate family relationships. At times, I invest too much energy in being a great friend.

I just hope that I didn't scare my little sister from new female relationships. I don't want her growing up believing all woman are shady. I want her take her time getting to know people in any kind of relationship because the best friendships are the ones that grow with time.

Sunday Nights

It's the worst night in my life. I have the hardiest time going to sleep on the Sunday. I dread Sunday nights like I dread getting my monthly cramps and bloating. I feel sleepy right now, but I doubt I'll fall asleep in the next 20 minutes.

Saturday Ritual

My Saturday Ritual is waking up around 9 am. Slipping into some gym clothes, having a cup of tea, and watching E! News Weekend before leaving my house around 10 to head to the gym. I go to gym to take a Pilates class at 11:45, but I arrive early to ride a recumbent bike for 20 minutes. Afterwards, I go to the various machines to work on legs or arms for 15-20 minutes, then I go walk the track or do some stretching for another 10-15 minutes before class starts. Basically, it's the same thing every Saturday.

I really don't like going to the gym, but I go because I don't want to get fat. When I first started going, I said I was going for health reasons, but the truth is I do it for pure vanity. I'm too scared of being a size 16 one day. I'm not fat, but I'm not skinny either. I got my problem areas - stomach and thighs, but I don't do a whole lot to change them either. Basically, I'm happy with my size. I'm just scared of getting bigger. I just wish I could be more enthusiastic about it. Start changing up my routine and do other exercises before my pilates class. Actually, I wish I didn't have to go and I could still eat what I want and never get fat, but I know that's just wishful thinking.

The Apprentice 10/14 Show

I really love this show, but I starting to realize I need to stop watching Reality TV Shows. It's getting so fake...well, I know it's fake, but it's getting really, really, bad now.

I Tivo'ed the show because I'm taking a class on Thursday nights and I must watch the show before I go to bed because I don't want to take the chance of someone spoiling the show for me. Anyhow, I stayed awake last night to watch the show, which I thought was pretty good last night until the last boardroom scene when Trump's tells the Apprentice-wannabes who's going home. Well, I think the producers of this show must think the views are dumb because it's so obvious when Trump is telling the guy who gets fired that it's a total VOICE OVER. The scene doesn't show Trump and his cronies; instead, it's a close shot of the soon-to-be canned guy. Afterwards, the camera cuts away to Trump before he says his infamous phrase. Well, if you weren't listening very hard, you can tell the audio of Trump's voice are totally different. Whatever Man! I don't know why I'm so annoyed, but it really ticked me off last night. I could have went to bed early.